September 24, 2010

  • No:

    I haven't dropped off the face off the earth.
    Thank You for inquiring about me.

    We are having an interesting year. I should say. In PC terms.
    I am recovering from losing the last miracle twin. (Long story for those I did not tell)
    Kara and I have taken turns at the hospital. She is awaiting major surgery( bypassing a defect in her duodenum) during her Christmas break from college. She had her gallbladder removed a couple of months ago after being ill for several months. GI believes she possibly has Crohn's disease.
    Noah had lost some weight he's had his endocrine system check. Thought was that he had hyperthyroidism. But apparently that was a misdiagnosis and he had some other issues.
    I went through a PPD after losing the babies. Decided to put the little children in public school after consulting with pastor's wife. I kept having road blocks occur now it is almost October
    and I still don't have them in. I feel better so I am trying to decide if I should keep them home and continue to home  school. Or let them go so I can clean up our house. It has become cluttered and dirty with all of the hospital stays and bedrest.
    Some have advised me the best thing I could do for my children would be to send them away to school. You can not be a good Mom if you can't get out of bed every morning.
    I did .... get out of bed every morning, it is just the days became overwhelming. There is another smaller group of people who told me to follow what God has told you to do. Your children have grace given for where HE has you, grace  to be with you all,whenever you are at. I did pray about where the children should be. My husband said he feels strongly that they should stay home schooled. At least for this year. I tried to enroll them out of desperation. I say often that I need some mothering through all of this. I need a mother's helper and a house cleaner. The house cleaner just to help me get caught up to a decent standard of house cleaning. A mother's helper to help me with the littles while I catch up with my 15 year old son and his school work. So we can keep our "normal" of finishing studies by Christmas. Before Kara has her surgery. I have started praying specifically for these 2 things since my head is more clear.
    My husband now has a job. We are very thankful for. He isn't making what he did before the lay off. I am just happy that he is gainfully employed. I believe that has helped ease some of whatever was getting me down. We are eating whole foods again because I am cooking.

    I have found the best thing right now for me is to get out o the house at least once a week, like taking the kids to the park to run around and have lunch in a quiet shady place. Ignore the chatter. Everyone has advice from their own personal thoughts or ideas, but someone who will pray with you and actually just lift a hand to help can usually offer the greatest advice.
    Enjoy this moment that GOD has given you. Do not fret about tomorrow. Don't miss today worrying about tomorrow.